The Windows of My Soul: I Gave My All (#45)

Sorry, I’m not going to post #44, “My Garden of Flowers” (December 11, 1971) as each stanza calls out Brenda’s children by name, and, in my opinion, gives a bit more personal information that I care to share on this public form. If I get permission from all of her kids, I’ll post it, but since none of them are following this blog (I’ll bet none of them are even aware of it!) I don’t see that happening soon.

Continuing on, #45 is moving free-form that reveals her inner anguish as her life and her marriage unfolded around her.

I Gave My All (#45)
© Brenda

One day
There was a man.
He loved me.

I believe
He
Loves me still.

I asked
Of him
Two things.

I said,
Please don’t
Lie to me.

He did.

Then
One night
He said

Good-bye

He said
He didn’t say
That

Unless, of course
He intended
Just that

He did.

The very next day
His excuses
Intensified.

I could
Have told him
There was no need.

I truly
Do not
Want

Someone
Who does not
Want me.

Even though
I cry.

Everyone thinks
He is
So special.

So did I.

He said
He wanted
To give his all.

To me.

I believed him.
My heart
Does still

Somewhere
In God’s world
There is a place

For me.

I wish
It could be
With him.

For
I gave
My all,

Because
I
Love him.

January 1, 1972

 

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